Heaven And Hell

Originaly posted in Vox October 17.2007
Dear God.

I may have been curious what heaven looks like, but did I ever ask you what hell was? I may have asked about heaven that I trust your forgiveness and want to be my future home but I don't remember asking about hell. Or maybe I did, unconsciously. Anyways, here I am and writing what you thought me.

My opinion about heaven and earth is not what you read in Koran and Bible and Torah than translate it literary. Those are just examples. In reality quiet different. When god says your life in this world is just like a grass raising from earth and living very short time than gets consumed by humans or animals for food. You should think about deep meaning of it, not that you actually are grass. The same is true when God talk about heaven and hell and benefits of earth.

Lets take its simple translation. People who do good dead go to heaven which is a big garden full of creeks of clean water and waterfalls and flowers and shrubs and creeks of milk and honey.

Will we really consume them. Maybe yes, maybe no, but I doubt it.

Who will go heaven? People who pray, read Gods world and don't do bad deeds. I also doubt anyone who never harm another human being and didn't cause pain to anyone will certainly go to heaven, no matter what his religion is. God is not going to punish him or her just because he or she didn't pray 24 hours a day for him and didn't read bible or Koran everyday. God is so great that doesn't need our worship but does requires us that we don't hurt each other.

When God says he will never forgive those of us who are killing each other, be sure people who are starting unjust wars and do killing and bombing and even killing people from their own religion and suicide bombers etc , etc, have the core of hell reserved for them.

And people who are helping each other and supporting each other and make peoples lives better and don't harm another human being even if it brings him billions or millions of dollars of benefit and smaller benefit, those are people who certainly go to heaven.

Remember there are people in this world and always have been that doing the biggest harm to another for so little benefit. So there is going to be to shortness of recruitment for hell. So God doesn't need recruitment officer for that. We go with our own feet and our own will to it. We steal what belongs to other everyday, not just by visible robbery but by cheating, telling lies to them, selling stuff for what it is not worth it, selling them loan just to steal their houses, starting wars to sell our products or steal the oil etc etc. So before you say will I didn't do anything bad and everybody is going to heaven think again, which group you belong to. Its not important what is your religion.

What I see the heaven is we are going to be as spiritual being, Our souls are going to go there, that if we belong to that lucky group. Forget about eating limitless tasty food and swimming in milk . Do you think you are going to wear your favorite jeans and shirt or tank top and stroll there? No that's because you think of heaven as full body present. What I think is our souls going to be there. But don't forget soul can be Terribly happy or terribly sad. Those who are in heaven, every moment of their existence there is such an excitement that is full of happiness. Ever been in love in your teenage year that you were thinking about the one you love, your heart is skipping, you are in deep thought, you don't think about sex or anything like that but you just think about him or her and how good she or he is , how beautiful, how wonderful it is going to be to just to talk to him or her and at the most , just hold his/her hand and do nothing else. And no matter what surrounds you, you don't want to leave that taught and think about anything else. That is where you want to be?

Well heaven is not bunjy jumping and swimming in milk pools. It is a state of continuous complete happiness that you have that moment with that loved one. Maybe the ones you love from this world or the ones you meet there. A heart full of love and happiness that never ends.

Those who fantasize about 72 virgins etc and they think to use them as sex slaves, my God, they got it so wrong. May God show them the right way. There is no place for sex and dirty taught that we think we enjoy in this world.

And no material happiness that we think are the source of happiness that exist there.

When god tells us about all the things we will have there , those are just examples, otherwise how else could he make people understand it 2000 or 3000 or 1400 years ago?

You just looking at them, enjoy their conversation, the most you will be able to do is touch their hands in whatever way a soul touches another souls hand. But that simple interaction give them so much love and happiness that is unimaginable and unattainable in this world. May God show us all that world and keep us from harming each there in this world so we can get there.

Now about the hell. So unconventional that you are for a surprise.

What you think? I huge burning jungle? A nasty pool of green slimy acid with intolerable smell? Is it going to be a huge volcano, people thrown in to?

Will that's if you carry your mortal body with you to that world, including skin and muscles and nose and tongue which I don't think you will.

I think Hell is going to start from this world, all the sorrows and pain and loneliness but it is going to carry to that world with peoples souls.

Here I am going to give you a scenario. That will hell is like, will at least one form of it.

You drive with some people you care the most about, let say the whole life is a short drive compared to the infinity that your soul is going to be stuck with forever. Now in that scenario you driving , all of them beside you, as much as you can fit in that car but from all your family and relatives and friends the closest one are with you in that trip. You pass some uneven roads, you get stuck in a muddy creek, you have a strong engine, you pass that too, (life's difficulties). Suddenly you come to a stop in a smaller hurdle that normally you don't even slow down there. You get out of the car to see whats happening, confused, you see a bridge, you cross it. Suddenly you are in a whole new territory. For a moment , you forget about the loved ones you left in the car because of sudden change. But in a few moment curiosity and surprise is gone. You try to walk around, you don't even see that bridge you crossed. You walk around, up hill, down hill, in this street or that but than there is not even street , you try to enter peoples house just to ask for help or direction, but you don't see even the door so you enter from back yards wall , you ask for help and direction, you see a pretty lady and a a rich respected men, they are happy. You ask your question. The pretty and nice lady look at you and say you trespassed like a thieve to our house and now you ask for direction. You leave, there are couple heavy muscles body guard blocking your way. They say they have to ask you couple questions because of trespassing to their masters property. You say something, " I am DR. Alexandre Palotin, I win all those noble prizes, or I am James Haspitton CEO of Microsoft, or eBay whatever ( Fictional characters) no offense. The bigger and more muscular one says Sir, we don't care who you are we still have to ask. You see him beating his palm with baseball Bat he got in his other hand, you know what is going to happen, so you run and get away from them, but you are so sad, you say why no one recognizes me. You want to know what happened to your loved ones, you still have your cell phone with you try to call them. Take it out. Doesn't work. You say if only I could see them one time just to make sure they are OK. Nope, not gonna happen. And why no one recognize me? I was a big shot. All those people around and I am so lonely.

You see the bridge from top of the hill, some people standing in line to cross it. Maybe those who fulfilled their punishment. But not you, you don't even have a car anymore and the other side of bridge is still invisible to you. Nothing familiar. Still so lonely, tired , mad, depressed and you don't even know why, you can't stop, you have to look around. You have to find your loved one. Your heart is pounding. Frustrated and scarred with your unsuccessful efforts. No sign of relief or an end or even a break, constantly looking and feeling lonely and frustrated. From one hill to other hill from one dirt road to other now empty, you don't even see strangers to talk to. You are a lost soul.

That my friend is hell. Not a party of burning humans. Even you wish you could hear another human beings pain or scream. But you are so lonely and there is no bigger pain than loneliness and not knowing where you going to. You wish you would burn with others at least you can hear them but even that is too much to ask. Beside who are you going to ask from? You have no one, no one that will listen to you.

Which version is more terrible? the one you read or the one I just described. Anyways, if God forbid, you ever go to hell,it is going to be where I described not burning party. You can be sure of that

Loneliness and being unrecognizable is the mother of all pains.

Afterthought.

When I reached that conclusion in a way which is between me and my God, I was so terrified, I saw myself there. I am sure if you believe in my words, you are terrified too for the first time in your lives. I was never terrified before. I am the kind of guy that says whatever happens, happens. If I am travelling somewhere and the plane crashes , it is OK. If I die suddenly in normal way or painful way , it is OK. If I am penniless poor, it is OK. But even I am so terrified by discovering this. I cried for the first time for fear of after death.

Than the only thing that give me relieve and comfort is that God not only shown me hell but also heaven. My curious mind always trying to discover God's secrets and sometimes the secret I don't ask for and have no intention to ask about, he gives it to me anyways.

So remember if you are a good person, don't harm another human being, and certainly don't kill another one and you are afraid of God, you will go to heaven and one second in that world is so beautiful that you don't want ever to end, and it is not going to end. Because people can go from hell to heaven after finishing their sentence if they did minor offences, but no one will go from heaven to hell, so you are safe there.

God luck my good fellow human being.